I recently posted a walk-through of one of my anxiety attacks and I got a lot of ladies reaching out about it (which makes me VERY happy).
If I can help anyone in the slightest bit by writing down my real life situations, my day is made.
It’s so easy to get caught up in social media and feel like everyone around you has it better than you do. I think we have all been there, right? It’s the worst. I mean, shit. It’s like daunting.
Don’t get me wrong, I love being able to connect with you guys through social media. It’s one of my favorite things to do. I snap all day long. The Amazon packages (sigh sigh sigh), the making fun of BA, the face masks, the food, etc. I really, really love it. But I also love to write to you guys on this platform, my blog, about my anxiety. Why? Because it’s real. And I started a blog to give and get real & raw advice.
I feel like leaving out a major part of my life would be wrong. Especially if it can help someone. Anyone.
Sometimes I read articles and I instantly feel better. I love reading for that reason. It makes me realize so much about myself.. and other people. I love when people open up and show part of their soul, I guess you could say? It makes ME feel alive just because THEY wrote it down.
That’s why I can’t leave anxiety out of this blog. As much as I wish it wasn’t a major part of my life, it is.
I felt a strong urge to write this post after flying back to Boston from New Orleans.
Airports give me anxiety, bad. It stems from not having control. I have no control when I’m on a plane and that makes me extremely anxious. It’s always been this way. Anything to do with not having control gives me anxiety.
I travel a good amount, so I’ve learned to deal with this. I had to teach myself (and still do) how to relax before flights.
But this flight was different. I couldn’t control how I was feeling. I couldn’t stop my chest from squeezing so tight I felt like I was going to cave. It was fucking horrible, to put it bluntly.
I was anxious the entire day about it.. so I knew the anxiety break down was coming. I did nothing to try to stop it, really. I just let my mind continue to think about the flight. Annnnnd YUP seconds after going through security I had tears coming down my face. For no reason.. just the fact that I had to get on a plane where I had no control. (Thankful for BA in these moments LOL.)
That was NOT caught on snap. HA. So, I had to spill the beans for you guys. Because life has real, raw, shitty parts that we all go through. I’m not pitty-partying at all. Like, at all. My life is simply amazing. Truly. I’m just trying to connect with you guys on a different level. A real level.
SO the point is – going down to New Orleans 2 days before, that anxiety & tears situation didn’t happen. Simply because I prepared myself and didn’t let my mind take over.
I definitely thought about the fact that I had to fly and I could feel myself getting anxious about it, but I did something about it.
Like a precaution. A preventative way of going about it. You know? Think of it like your skin. A lot of us take care of our skin and use oils, masks, etc. to prevent breakouts, inflammation, or whatever else. That’s how I go about my anxiety. I try to stop it before it happens.
I’ve been doing a lot of preventative things lately – like acupuncture & meditation – because I really want to take my anxiety level down a notch.
I had a patient who got into meditation and he was so passionate about describing the changes it has made for him that I had to get into it. I literally HAD TO. I wish you could have seen his face talking about it. I LOVE THAT. Passion.
He lured me in, for sure. So I’m in the process of that right now. I will talk more about it when I have done it for awhile. He actually told me about a few books to get and read on it as well. I’m ordering those tonight (Amazon addictions gaaah).
Same with acupuncture. I’m already feeling a difference and I LOVE IT. I will post on it soon – it’s something an entire blog post needs to be dedicated to.
Okay SO, I wanted to give you guys some precaution anxiety tips that I’ve been doing a lot lately.
+ YOGA – If you are CIC readers, you know I love yoga. I used to do it randomly, but I’ve made it a routine to do it 3 times a week, at night, and at home. I do it on my phone (YogaGlo app is amazing) and I have felt so much more relaxed throughout the weeks. I did yoga almost everyday before my flight to New Orleans, but I didn’t do it once while I was down there.
+ MEDITATION – I just recently started this, but I can say that right after I do it I feel like a different person. I will get more into it once I’ve been doing it for awhile, but it’s definitely been helping. Just sitting there and breathing really deep is an anxiety reducer for me.
+ I MAKE LISTS – I feel like being organized has helped with my anxiety in some way. I make lists and check things off when I finish them and it’s like a breath of fresh air LOL. I don’t really know why, but it has helped me a tremendous amount. The entire week before my flight I had a list every single day that I checked things off of. When I went to bed, I felt relaxed and completed. I slept better.
+ MAGNESIUM – I drink magnesium every night. I get the powder where you just put a scoop into your tea at night. It has helped with my anxiety a major amount, and I make sure to do it every night now to be preventative.
+ I MAKE A TIME BLOCK TO READ – This is huge for me. I’ll skip out on reading a lot because I feel like I have more to do. I make times, put it on my list and in my planner, and I do it nightly. It relaxes me. I also bring magazines (I hate reading books on flights) on the plane to keep my mind busy.
(currently reading: chasing slow – VERY good)
+ NOTEBOOKS – I always carry a notebook with me. Always. Always. No matter where I am, I have a notebook and a pen. Writing takes me down notch. It helps me to relax. That’s why I love it so much. I’m better at writing my words down than I am at saying them out loud. It’s just how I work. So now as a precaution, I always carry one around. I’ll literally write in the middle of the day at a restaurant. When something comes into my mind that’s worth having down on paper, I start to write. No matter where I am. Find something that relaxes you and bring it with you everywhere!
Those are things I’m doing to prevent anxiety right now. Like I said, acupuncture is huge but I need to go more to talk to you guys about it. I’m still finding out all the crazy details and it’s so amazing but I need to write a full post on it.
What are you guys doing for it? Do you prepare or are you just like ah f it and deal with it when it happens? Tell me more.
On that note, I’m about to go do my nightly yoga!