Hey hey guys, happy sunday!
I’m excited to be here – writing with you guys. The past two days I’ve been pretty uninspired with a major headache (the worst, right?) so last night when I picked up my computer to write, I lasted about two minutes before I decided my bed was a better idea.
This morning BA and I drank lemon water (he had about two sips) and coffee, read, and then went for a long, quiet walk with the dogs (we are babysitting so we have two right now!!!) and it was exactly what I needed. Sometimes a good decompress, forget about everything, walk it off type of moment is the answer. My head completely cleared, talking about the flower shop I want to buy a million flowers at and the dinner we are going to cook tonight.
I came home, sat down at my computer, and the words started to spill out. Being completely frozen yesterday, it feels so good to get back into a steady flow of doing what I love. I’ve shared my motivation tips with you guys before, which included walking, because I find it super important to slow down.
I’m the type of person who gets frustrated when I feel uninspired and unproductive. I definitely let it get to me more than I should – getting down on myself and then taking it out on BA for no reason. So, ya, no one wins in that situation.
I’m trying to become better, putting the computer or pen away when needed and taking a walk or doing something to completely zone out instead of staring at a blank page.
One thing I’ve learned with having anxiety and a head that gets way too cluttered and overwhelmed is prevention. Always, literally. I try to incorporate things daily, weekly, on the weekends, whenever, into my life so that I won’t hit a point where I’m killing myself over not being as productive as I wanted to be. Like walking after work, or painting when I’m watching tv, or reading instead of scrolling through Instagram, or starting a book club, or going to the dog park instead of worrying about tomorrows tasks, or reading the newspaper on Sunday mornings. Whatever it is that you need to do, do it. Incorporating things so it comes naturally has helped me unwind and not get down on myself, and honestly – it’s opened up my eyes to slowing down a little bit.
My Sunday mornings used to be anxiety filled – trying to get this and that done, writing until my hands hurt, making sure my workout fit in the day somewhere, waking up and going – right away. Reading the newspaper is weird at the age of 24 in 2017, I know. I was like eh, I don’t know about this – but I bought it anyway. I wanted to give it a shot, couldn’t hurt. If anything, I’d use it when I paint to protect my floors from turning blue.
The floors will still be turning blue until I’m done with the paper on Sunday nights.
I fell in love with reading information from a piece of paper, with no sound on, yelling out random sentences to BA while he reads about sports or whatever. Here and there he will give a “no way” or “wow, that’s cool” and then gets back to doing his thing. I mean, the Taylor Swift trial is much more interesting on paper – trust me. Journalists have a way with words, huh?
So now my Sunday mornings consist of lemon water, coffee, and a newspaper. No sound, no social media, no thoughts really, just words telling me what’s going on in the world.
It’s something I’ve found for myself that sets my day off right, completely zoning me out and letting me focus on absolutely nothing. My mind doesn’t worry about what’s next, where I need to be tomorrow, what has to be done by midnight, how much is in my bank account, nothing.
Maybe it’s painting, writing, drawing, going for a run, watching the news, reading the news, laying on the floor with your dog, doing yoga, staring out the window – try to incorporate it. If you want to tell people about it, tell them. If you don’t, don’t. It literally doesn’t matter, I can’t say it or write it enough.
Someone would look at a 24-year-old with a newspaper in a coffee shop and probably question the sight they were seeing, which is kind of crazy, but it would most likely happen once or twice. No phone? No computer? Does the newspaper need wifi to be readable these days? People will always question you – no matter what. Always. Always. Always.
Do what you need to do.
And when you are feeling super unproductive like I was, take a break. Walk away. Get some fresh air. Eat a donut or a salad. Drink a water or a tea. Put the phone away. Zone out, completely. The unproductive feelings will fade and you’ll find yourself inspired by so many random things. If that includes eating that donut in the middle of a park while everyone else is running – do it, damnit. You can run tomorrow. Slow down. Take a minute to do you, trust that.
love you guys